It’s been a long while since my last post but quite a few things have happened over the past several months. This year has been full of so many life changes for me. Graduating from college, getting married, leaving home, starting my first job and leaving it, going back to school for dental hygiene… I lost my grandfather the day after my wedding and I miss him so incredibly much, especially right now during the holidays. I lost my beloved dog I’ve had since middle school. Our pastor was thrown in jail for child molestation… I could go on but the reality is that sadness has been knocking on my door for several months now. But God has reminded me over and over again that I am not in control and that His plan is where my hope needs to rest.
I’ve started running and listening to Christian music for an hour each day and it has awakened my motivation and faith that have been drowning since the day I lost my Grandpa. Grieving is hard and it takes time… it’s been 3 months now and I am just now getting back on my feet and working towards the future I want. It’s hard to even think about a future when the man whose been there literally every step of the way is no longer with you.
So many people I care about have experienced tragic loss, cancer, or unemployment this year and I honestly can say that all I want for 2017 is a fresh start and renewed energy for these beautiful people to pick up the pieces and press forward. I know my Grandpa is with his Creator right now and that brings me overwhelming joy that pushes the sadness down so i can move on with my life. My strength comes from the Lord and that’s all there is to it. Here’s to happy holidays with family and friends, a Christmas to be thankful for what we have and hope for a new year! God is good.